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in the room that was now to be his until school would start again some three months hence, when he would again be wearing his own clothes, but for part of each day only.

His initial move, after first closing the door leading to his mother's room, was to strip off all his own boy's clothes, and then attempt to dress himself again, but for the very first time, in women's clothes. He selected from the fine clothes still piled on his bed, just what he thought he would need for this purpose. This finally consisted of white, pull-on nylon girdle, a matching bra, slip and matching panties also of white nylon, and a pair of natural colored nylon stockings. He left the choice of dress and shoes until later.

After struggling vainly for several minutes, he was at last successful in correctly placing his girdle, but when he attempted to fasten the nylon stockings to the four garters of his girdle, he met frustration, as he found that no matter how hard he tried, he could not reach the back garters, As a result, the stockings were secured to the front garters only. Similarly with his bra, here again, while he could reach and fasten the lower two hooks, the upper two were inaccesssible, and as a result there remained a gap at the top. Both the slip and the panties presented not any problems, but on looking at himself in the mirror, at this point, he noticed with chagrin, that not only did his stockings droop from behind from being improperly fastened, but he noticed that he had also made a run in one of them which certainly did not

improve the overall appearance.

Seeking now to cover his shortcomings with a dress he chose a dark green linen shirtwaister, with long sleeves and white collar and cuffs. To his dismay, he again found the same difficulty with the back zipper of the dress, as he had had with his bra. Being unable to pull this all the way up to the top, leaving here another gap. But which, as he could not see the deficiency, did not then bother him too much. He at last finished his dressing by chosing a pair of dark brown leather pumps with medium two inch heels, which were the lowest heels available to him from his collection, He was both surprised and disappointed to find that they were much more difficult and uncomfortable to walk in than he had anticipated, but he finally did manage after a fashion. At the same time he recognized that he undoubtedly would find it increasingly tiring to be wearing such shoes for an entire day until he eventually became accustomed to them, and that this would probably take a while.

Jan, at that moment, chanced to again look at himself in a full length mirror, and to his dismay, found that he did not look at all as femininely attractive as he had anticipated would be the case as soon as he was fully dressed, and wished increasingly that his mother had not been so definite in her refusal to help in any respect with his dressing. Then, hearing her still moving